Hi there.  My name is Tortugita.  I am a 30-something, recently married, full-time working gal just trying to figure out my life.

I feel that I woke up recently and realized that I had been living my life in a shell.  I had not stepped outside myself in a long time, to further my life, to make it what I dreamed, to push myself.  I had been doing the same thing for years – getting up for work, working, going home, sleeping – repeating day after day.  I lost my drive, my passion for everything.  I stopped reading, learning, trying new things.  Every passing day, I had more and more stress at work.  I felt more and more like I was stuck, that I had no where to go.  I had lost hope that I could grow, that my life still had limitless possibilities.  You know, that feeling you have when you’re young, that you can be or do anything.

Well, I had a decently bad day at work Monday.  I went home and ate just about everything unhealthy I could in my kitchen.  I sat on my couch, turned on the TV and started to watch cartoons (yes, I love watching adult cartoons).  As the episode progressed and my tummy started to protest against my junk food binge, I started thinking – why do I feel this way?  Why am I letting my life slip through my fingers?  When did I lose control over my own happiness and contentment?  Why do I feel like I have no more options and I have to accept my life as is, at this moment in time?

*Epiphany*

HAH! (as I laugh at myself) I did not have to feel this way.  I do not have to accept the job that I am in.  I do have choices.  I can free myself from the stress that seems to be dragging me down.  It does not matter that I am in my 30s, I can still change and grow.  Why did I not realize this before?  I have a great husband that supports me.  I am intelligent, creative and a hard worker.  Why can’t I have the life I want?

So, I bought some books about starting a blog.  Started a meditation routine, a new diet, new exercise routine.  Discussed my plan with the hubby and got him on board.  Bought a website.

That brings me here…to my first blog post.  It’s my hope that I can chronical my experience (my dream future experiences) with all of you so that you have hope too.  So, that you, don’t feel alone like I did.

I hope you will stick with me.  I am starting a new journey today and I am not sure where it will end up.  I know I will have highs and lows but I am excited about my possible future and I wish you an exciting new possible future too.